The Emotional Orphan

I want to crawl inside you
Anxious daily until we speak
More anxious after I do sometimes,
Missing you already….alone

Nights we’re not together
I’m deformed. crippled, incomplete.
I do not want to be possessed anymore than you can be.
Merged, unified. transfigured, complete.

Like an image coming into view,
From chemicals in a tray, in a dark room.
I play photographer as if I could capture any moment,
Nothing so beautiful could be captured, especially you

I make no apology for me…the
Unself centered voice of an unquiet heart
The same conversation every time,
Repeatedly holding a court of my personal opinion
Make our voices sound like a song.

Being un able to get comfortable …because it hurts.
No matter which way you turn you are stuck.
It’s where I have been – stuck, frozen inside, uncomfortable, in pain.
Dying to crawl out, and crawl inside you

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